This album really touched me, coming as it did shortly after my dad's death and choking as it does on the loss of a troubled parent. I saw Sufjan on tour for it- I couldn't remember if I went with Paul or Casi, and examining my June 2015 calendar reveals that the show fell into the slim window when I was seeing both of them, trying to schedule my way to harmony with two people who didn't actually want to be nonmonogamous. I remember the show bringing me to tears. I hadn't ever really connected with emotions brought on by art the way that I did then. Since adolescence, I've been on a long arc toward actually feeling my feelings, with the most recent success along those lines coming in the aftermath of cancelling my wedding with Casi: no more logistics, no more fixing, no more long term planning. Only looking the ghosts around my apartment in the eye, listening to music, and not stifling the tears.
I think you're capturing the spirit of this record exactly Alex! For me, this record is also about trying to make sense of so many things that are much bigger than us--family, relationships, life and death, the cycles we find ourselves in. It's about acceptance for what things are now, but also recognizing that we're haunted by the way things used to be.
This album really touched me, coming as it did shortly after my dad's death and choking as it does on the loss of a troubled parent. I saw Sufjan on tour for it- I couldn't remember if I went with Paul or Casi, and examining my June 2015 calendar reveals that the show fell into the slim window when I was seeing both of them, trying to schedule my way to harmony with two people who didn't actually want to be nonmonogamous. I remember the show bringing me to tears. I hadn't ever really connected with emotions brought on by art the way that I did then. Since adolescence, I've been on a long arc toward actually feeling my feelings, with the most recent success along those lines coming in the aftermath of cancelling my wedding with Casi: no more logistics, no more fixing, no more long term planning. Only looking the ghosts around my apartment in the eye, listening to music, and not stifling the tears.
I think you're capturing the spirit of this record exactly Alex! For me, this record is also about trying to make sense of so many things that are much bigger than us--family, relationships, life and death, the cycles we find ourselves in. It's about acceptance for what things are now, but also recognizing that we're haunted by the way things used to be.
I guess that's also what this project is about?